Finishing

Recently, I left my outside job to focus on my own gig here at home.  In fact, I just printed out the application for the local Farmer's Market.  It's exciting and horrendously terrifying.  Now, I have all this pressure to prove to myself that I can make this work.  Consequently, I spend all my time working. I focus on what needs to go in the ground, what needs to go where, what ground needs to get dug up, and what weeds I can live with. Or which sewing job comes next.  I forget about maintaining the flower beds or the bathroom curtain or finishing projects.  I tend to work a project until I can live with it and then move on, never adding the trim to the chicken coop or cleaning up the bark in the driveway from when we spent a weekend splitting firewood.  Stupid things like that. Things that really would only take another 30 minutes to an hour to finish up. So I'm working hard on giving myself permission to slow down and finish the projects I thought would be cool, but not necessary.  Clean up the flowerbeds.  Put bottle edging around the herb gardens. Build a rocket stove.  Now I schedule the first 30 minutes of working outside to those things.   I gotta say, it's shocking to see how much I can actually get done in 30 minutes and all the other "must dos" are getting done as well. I feel much better about things and how much better everything looks.

Deb